Everyday is a Battle

Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert and to keep your head above the water.

I decided aout an hour ago that I wanted to start a blog. So, I made an account, a title and pressed the "New Post" button. Then, I just sat here and looked at the blank page. Maybe I was hoping that if I stared for long enough, the blog would write itself. Well, it didn't.

After staring at it for a bit, a thought flew through my brain. Why in the world would anyone care about what I have to say? You want to know what I did next? I typed the word "everyday".

So, here it is.

Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert and to keep your head above the water. It would be so much easier if life had an "off" button*. We could escape, regroup, and then reconquer. Sadly, life doesn't have an "off" button. When we fall, we get kicked and when we fail,
we have to push through to the next phase, defeated and terrified.


Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert, and to keep your head above the water. I used to think that I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I also thought I knew which way was right. Then I realized that I don't know what I want and direction is relative. So, basically, I am back at square one praying for direction and purpose. Becca threw up the idea of London... hmmm.


Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert, and to keep your head above the water. Yesterday I learned that playing mind games are never fun. I also learned that engagement rings are expensive. If I was a guy, I would start saving today.


Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert, and to keep your head above the water. I never dream about drowning or flying. I rarely dream of falling. Just once, I wish I could dream of that happy ending. You know, the one that can't possibly exist? I could day dream about it. But, day dreaming doesn't feel real. Real dreams feel real. They all do. That's why nightmares suck. You really feel like you are fighting for your life in dreams. Now that I think about it, though, how does that differ from real life? If nightmares can be real life, then so can happy dreams. That is why I want to dream of that happy ending. If I can dream it, it can be real.


Everyday is a battle.

But, you already knew that.


Everyday is a battle to stay sane, remain alert, and to keep your head above the water. Everday that we survive is a blessing, a reason to thank God.







*thanks for the idea, Chris